I know… I’m rubbish. Since starting my job in October, this blog has taken somewhat of a hit. I’m sorry!
However, as we fast approach 2019 (and yes one of my resolutions is to crack on with this again), I thought it would be rather apt to look back on the past 12 months and think ‘WTF WAS THAT?!’
I won’t bang on about how rubbish the first 10 months of this year were… there are many many posts about that. What is super weird though is how the year is ending. In the past 3 months, miracles have occurred.
I started my new job which I adore. THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE. I wish I could tell you where it was and what it involved, but alas I cannot. However, I’m still an OT and it’s all going rather splendidly. That was a close one guys.
I have completed by Advanced Diploma in Nutrition and Weight Management which has proved very useful. It is very challenging not to become embroiled in the dieting industry on Instagram… every diet has an excellent sales pitch. However, I will be doing my best in 2019 to follow what I have learnt from this course. Of course, I would love to be rocking my active wear with my belly out by tomorrow, but firstly, let’s be realistic and I also want to incorporate healthy habits into my daily life to ensure I enter my elderly years in the best way possible.
The final and best thing that’s happened this year however, is the change in my attitude to life. Now I know… When I used to hear people speak of daily gratitude I was the first to do an eye roll and think it was all a load of tosh. Just ask my friends. HOWEVER, when it was all going a bit wrong, I really started working on being grateful for what I had and let go of all the dreams to own this, that and the other because I had to for my sanity. Now don’t get me wrong. There were many days when I sobbed on the phone to my Mum asking her what was the point in working so hard to lose it all. I am only human. However I started listening to podcasts on Mindfulness, being thankful for what I had e.g. my incredibly supportive family and friends and REALLY worked hard on not trying to freak out.
And I’m now a completely different person. I’m not afraid to say I feel content and at peace for the first time in as many years as I can remember. Granted there are more awkward silences because I have nothing to moan about, but it’s a small sacrifice.
Of course, I still go on Right Move daily and spend my days on Instagram trawling through millions of photos of dogs. I have put on a few lbs but it is another resolution to get that weight off ASAP. But I’m not sitting here beating myself up too much. To have maintained until December is a small miracle in itself after the turmoil this year has brought.
My life is far from perfect but the reality is, perfection doesn’t exist. As I’ve said before, as long as there’s a roof over your head, food on the table, water to drink and you’re surrounded by loved ones, you don’t really need much more than that.
I won’t miss 2018 by any stretch of the imagination, but I can only hope that it has equipped me with everything I need to have an amazing 2019!